I need a vacation. Period.

I've been dreaming of a vacation.  Daily.  For 3 years.  It's been that long since we've taken a real vacation.  It was also around that time we finished up the year-long weekend demolition on the remodel, sold our first house, and began the grueling task of putting the remodel back together. Since then, our "vacations" have all been "stay-cations" involving a lot of work on the house.  Things like contracting the plumbing, electrical, carpentry, and drywall.  Installing the hardwoods, ceramic tile, endless paiting, etc. ourselves.  So, what's happened in 3 years?  Let's see.  I took a new job, got pregnant, had a baby, and the hubs took a new job (a very demanding one, at that).  He hasn't been home before 9:30pm all week.  Saturdays are used to unwind, recharge, and plan for the week ahead.  I can't expect him to work on the house when he's worked so hard all week.  Sundays we get about 3 hours together.  We all know life just happens and how plans change at every turn.  It's life.  We will probably get some time off this fall - finally!  Will we take off for that much needed getaway?  Doubtful.  We'll probably use the time to work on the house.  Again.  It's the "right" thing to do.  Perhaps we can hire out a few things while we install the last 4 rooms of hardwoods.  Perhaps we'll be close to finishing this remodel by then.  We really need a week to work.  It makes sense and it's the logical choice, but it sure is depressing!  I need time away!  A real vacation.  I have to get out of this house!  My office outside the home used to be my little corner of peace in the world.  A finished space that I could control.  Keep clean.  And organized.  Working from home this year has been a challenge.  It's hard to look around at this unfinished mess every day and focus on work.  It's also hard to have a toddler and focus on house stuff, work stuff, or anything else for that matter.  But coming home to an unfinished house after a week away would be equally as depressing.  It's a hard pill to swallow, but I think the answer is really to stay here and work on the house.  Sometimes doing what's best and what's right isn't necessarily fun or exciting. 

Either way, I can't wait to have the hubs all to myself for an entire week.  No work.  Just the three of us enjoying time together.  Regardless if it's a real vacation or just hanging out here working again at the messie house, whatever we're doing - it will be time together and I'm looking forward to that.  I just hope I can keep it together until then!